A Foot in The Mouth

*BANG* The sound was like a knife through the air and she blinked over and over again. It had happened, right? The sinking feeling in her stomach only grew stronger and stronger where she sat. Wasn’t it possible to just jump up and down and then everything would be okay? Or sneeze the feeling out? That would be something more than helpful. She continued to sit there, just staring in front of her. Her head was feeling dizzy, but she wasn’t really dizzy, was she? It was more a feeling of anger mixed with disappointment. Of course, she had put her foot into her mouth yet another time.

I believe many can relate to this to a certain point. We all say more than what we thought of at times. Typical, isn’t it? I find the phrase of putting your foot into your mouth rather good because it symbolizes you action in a way that normally many would find hard to describe.

What I mean with this is that we often say things we maybe shouldn’t have said. We have the type of people saying bad things or things that hurt which they understand can be bad, but we all do. We regret, say sorry and tried to leave it with that.

Now, let me explain something else I thought about; the reason why I wrote this. In conversations, people will often have strong opinions and they want to defend their opinions. Are you with me so far? Okay, let’s continue. The conversation goes on, but after some time, you will see that it’s changed. The change is hard to describe, but you understand that the defending of each person’s views comes more clearly out. But keep in mind; this is still a conversation, not an argument.

At this point, I think people often can put their foot into their mouth. Either they can defend their point of view rather strongly or they say too much. Note, by saying too much, it does not mean what they are saying is negative. Now, let’s jump to the point where the conversation is ended.

Here you are sitting, understanding you said too much. Basically, you did put your foot into your mouth. In my case, it’s often caused by a comment from others. It makes me see what I just said, and I am frightened. I am frightened that I said too much. But there is this deeper feeling under it as well; I just wanted to tell MY opinion, didn’t I?

Thoughts like “Why can’t I express my opinions like others?” and “What am I doing wrong” are coming over me like the shadow of a wave. Yes, it all becomes a wave. Why does everything I try to say get wrong?

I strongly dislike that feeling.

She stared in front of her for quite some time before the tears busted out again. Another day, another cry.

Merlin Quotes Here and There

I think my eyes and I are in a very deep conflict at the moment. Sitting and working with science for an hour or so only makes them grumpy. They want to fall down, but I do not want them to. I fear they are taking over my will. Besides, I don’t have time for them falling down. I must work on math because I have a math test tomorrow! I should write something sensible, but I don’t have the time, but I wanted to write something. Instead, I came to think to think about a couple of quotes that I just wanted to… Share. And it’s Merlin. Eh.

"Destinies are troublesome things. You feel trapped? Like your whole life has been planned out for you and you've got no control over anything and sometimes you don't even know if what destiny has decided is really the best thing at all." - Merlin

"Are you sure we are talking about the same Arthur, because that Arthur is an idiot" – Merlin to The Great Dragon (You got to love that one.)

"What if my father's opinion of magic is wrong, that not all magic is evil?" – Sensible(!) Arthur to Merlin

“Listen to me Arthur!” “You know me, Merlin… I never listen to you!” – Arthur and Merlin

"Put the sword down Merlin. You look ridiculous." – Arthur

"The thing I find hardest to bear is that people will always think he was guilty because he tried to escape." – Gwen about her father

"Well you don't look like one of those big muscley kinds of fellows" - Gwen to Merlin

"You. How proud you must be, son of the mighty Uther. How you must look up to him. Does the king's little helper bring a message or have you just come to gloat?" - Morgana to Arthur (I know it is dark, but I do find it very good.)

"And killing things mends a broken heart?" – Morgana to Arthur

"You and Arthur are but two side of the same coin" – The Great Dragon (Priceless)

”A crown does not define who you are. It only gives you a title.” – Me on Uther and Morgana. Ahem.

And that’s it. Now I have a slightly random blog post, but it is a post… Right?